one fine day, i

Before enlightenment, the laundry.
After enlightenment, the laundry.


i want to create the feeling of an expanded consciousness and awareness, an out of body experience for my character, which the audience can observe as a dilation of a fleeting moment.

this Buddhist phrase captures the transience of the experience of an ultimate reality, while placing it in the context of the finite reality to which we are bound, complete with all its responsibilities and chores.

to communicate the time/space disruption i will draw on maya deren's "ritual in transfigured time" and "meshes of the afternoon" as well as alain resnais's "last year at marienbad" particularly the way the conversations are halted in resnais's film while the camera moves between characters. i want to do this to convey the out of body experience as well as the empathic aspect of complete understanding of another's perspective and oneness with the universe, while maintaining an individual identity (which will be expressed through the camera movement.)

hmmm. a lot of that sounded totally new age-y. i promise it is not.

CRIT v. 2.2.1

I am frustrated with my video. I went a performative route, thinking that the ideas I could communicate therein would be more compelling than a straight image. But apparently I failed at that, not cinematic enough to be a short film, not realistic/dramatic/bizarr-o enough to be a performance with any substance.

ouch.

I am still intrigued by the images but I do think that they would have been better suited to be part of a larger narrative. In my head I know exactly where I would want to reshoot and what my establishing shot would be and what the narrative arc would be, etc. However, my perfect location is in Great Falls, MT and not realistic to go do over any time soon.

I should move on. But its been only 12 hours since crit and I am still smarting from it. I feel like a failure lately.

oh so pretty

sorry no storyboards, but there is no story

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pop the glock

glitter and gem stones, mother fucker.

cruisealicious.

hey mikey, i think she likes it!

and its about time, too.

i toyed with the idea of a chain reaction before realizing that each video does not have to be a chain reaction...

and i thought about the video i want to do with matthew at some point...

but i just thought of something better (at least something i want to do, which is always better, according to the new bronwynian laws of self government)...

my mom as a photograph on her wall of a bubble, but it doesn't look like a bubble at all, it looks like the earth, or like a fetus in a womb. 2001 Space Odyssey, anyone?

I'm not sure what I will do with it exactly, but it is an idea gestating in my brain, which is far more than I had to say at this time yesterday.

A snippet from a conversation last night: "Oh, I know what I'm doing this summer. Having a baby." More usable (although less entertaining?) than penile beatboxing...

Ch-Ch-Ch-Chaiiiiiinzzzzzzzes every where you look around....

a chain reaction?

i am thinking that the actions/reactions are all part of separate narratives that are joined by graphical matches or match on actions to create a cohesive arc, even if the pieces are somewhat disjointed....

but wouldn't that be more like a title sequence than my title sequence was?